I hope everybody had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. I took a break last month to refocus and rest. It was great. I was able to spend some quality time with Roxana. We didn't travel this past holiday. We stayed at home to make it a holiday of just me and her. We had some wonderful times and enjoyed every second of our time. Our relationship is growing stronger with every moment that passes. We treasure our time together today just like it has been for 15 years.
One thing I have to work on this year is to better manage the feeling of frustration and sadness. This is caused by the abrupt change that happened in my life since the injury. At times I think that it probably was better if I couldn't remember how I was pre-injury. But that is not my reality. I remember exactly how I was. I remember having photographic memory, I remember not having to open a book to get an A in college, I remember reading a 600 page book in a few nights, I remember running 8 miles a day, I remember how successful I was. Looking at this I can see is a pretty hard truth to swallow. I've been adjusting my life to make it as enjoyable as it can get. I'm comfortable with it. After adjusting my life the harder part is seeing it as a new normal. Sometimes I think I can do things as if nothing happened and I fail. This adjustments seem to never stop. I have to remind me every day to use cognitive strateegies. It seems at time like it doesn't sink in. All this adjustments bring a daily frustration and sadness. I wouldn't call it depression, I am resilient and avoid being disengaged from things and people. I see the reality and I'm conscious of my limitations. The frustration and sadness takes a toll in my relationships because as much as I try to leave it outside the house it comes in with me. I try to hide it but Roxana knows me to well to know that I'm not ok. If you have dealt witha Traumatic Brain Injury survivor you know that we can't control some things. This is a resolution I have for this new year. To cope and manage the frustration better so it don't affect my relationships.
In other subjects, I'm back in full force and energized to keep pushing with this mission. My goal is to be able to help as many people as I can. To come up with innovative ideas to bring together the TBI community. I have in plans the establishment of a foundation among many other things. Just by stopping by and reading this blog is a great support to me and many others. Together we can make a better world for those families surviving brain injuries.
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